spin

it was just a coincidence we met that day:
two points in one time,
two times in one place.
worlds spin towards each other, and spin away,
and as you turn,
shadows creep over your contours, your face
leave no trace behind of moments
where such strong light did seem to shine
on what i thought i saw,
what i thought was you,
but almost so much light as to blind.

and slowly, my gravity distorts,
axis quivers, shifts,
can’t resist
the pull towards,
that twists my orbit a bit too much,
as if my spin isn't stable enough
on its own.

worlds spin towards each other, and spin away.
world's spin together, and mine will sway
and slide
a slow and sweet descent,
that gradually picks up pace and gathers speed,
until eventually
plummets and drags in everything else that matters,
all matter sucked in, indiscriminately,
eyes black holes cannot see
anyone else down here
except you and me,
and we’re not sure
who is who
and who’s gravity,
whose lines and contours,
whose shadows came first.
worlds spin so close
that down here i can’t even see you at all,
only how you fit to me.

stop.
i cannot
do this to you or me.
worlds spin together, and spin away,
and maybe i can't see you for a few days.
maybe i need some time
alone
without the nose-dive, arms out, tail high, full flight
into someone else's life.
this time i’m going to fall
down the well of the inside.

this is not
an orbit around you;
it's just a beat i'm moving to,
one rhythm, split to many sounds:
two hands, two feet, two shoulder blades,
two eyes, two knees, two sides of my own symmetry,
one spine running down between,
my very own axis, i spin around,
two halves, firmly on the ground.

two sides and don't they stretch out far,
and aren't these legs just full of power,
one spine and didn't my neck grow tall,
and doesn't my breath reach down so deep.
this is a place that i can keep.

this is a place that feels like home,
that feels like peace-full glide
of ocean whale, huge and slow,
cannot fall,
held by water's ebb and flow.
this is a place that i've always had
and i'll lose it but i'll always come back.
worlds spin towards each other and spin away
and i'm more interested in swimming today.
this is not am orbit around you.