mirrors

bonny was in their regular cafe
liked to come here and read and dream
or meet with some mates but not today
it was a quick gap in between
a moment's pause to contemplate
outside of the daily routine

and in bonny's dream they saw a face
they coulda sworn they'd already seen
framed by the window, in her regular place
lost in thought, or coulda been

but just then she looked up and met bonny's gaze
and why is it that just then it seemed
to reach down to bonny's guts
twist, wrench, drop, fuck
something in bonny was waking up
that they usually kept at bay

and they meet like mirrors, crossing eyes
each asking what they see
tell me honest, tell me lies
I'm just how you want me to be
but when you meet like mirrors it's no surprise
that you don't see what's underneath
it's much harder to look inside
but love is vulnerability

bonny wasn't really looking for someone
kinda given up hope
tried it before and ended up stung
and now that door is closed
and though it's many years since she's been gone
that love holds bonny like yards of rope
that ties in knots to understand
how she coulda just let go

and when bonny looks back through time's sands
all the memories turn cold
she never wanted me how I am
so I might as well be alone
but now bonny's looked up and
a door closed so long
grabs bonny and pulls on bonny's hand
and opens like a light switch turning on

they meet like mirrors, crossing eyes
each asking what they see
tell me honest, tell me lies
I'm just how you want me to be
but when you meet like mirrors it's no surprise
that you don't see what's underneath
it's much harder to look inside
but love is vulnerability

and deep down bonny doesn't really believe
anyone would want the whole thing
I won't be enough, I'll be way too much
she'll want me to change and then she'll leave
but as bonny looks at her a spark flicks:
what if she just likes me
bonny's mind starts playing tricks
could this be different finally?

and that's how it all begins
bonny will try to heal and fix
their own insecurity
by asking someone else to give
reassurance constantly