Mother moved house. She moved when I wasn't there, but I've seen it now. We had Christmas there last year and that was the point at which it became a family house. We all helped to keep the fire lit, and the complex procedure of Christmas dinner was kept in check by a thorough list detailing the time-before-take-off of each person's part.
Mother's house has hills and woods now. I tried running through them last time I was there. At first there was a stream making enough noise to keep the footfall on leaves into a delicate but slightly frantic pattern. But then there were only woods and fields and all the focus settled on the ups and downs of the hill path so that the head felt it was ploughing through the softly muddy ground. I let the feet tumble down and down till we reached the road. The carving had already been done there. But then there were the lorries passing from behind with their invisible drivers, passing at such regular intermittence that in the quiet spells you could feel in your skin the next one growing in the distance behind until it was big enough to take its place in the air it would push past you.
The next day I ran in the other direction. I ran alongside a canal, and although it didn't have the rush of the stream, its quiet, steady companionship was more than enough. Sometimes the land at the side rose up or fell away, and sometimes a bridge wanted everyone to cross to the other side, but the path and the water stayed at the same level the whole time so that the feet and the eyes could go their separate ways. At times they were miles apart. At a certain point there was a tunnel. It wasn't that anything about the path changed. It was just that the land closed overhead so that the water on the ground glistened black and the thin splashes they made shot back from the roof to accentuate the tentativity of the feet. Once I was through the tunnel there didn't seem to be any point in continuing further so, a little more confidently this time, I plunged back into the darkness and ran home.
